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I graduated from college a year ago. I received a job offer two days after graduation. I have been working there for about 10 months already. I am earning an income. I bought a brand new car on the first weekend of work and moved into a home where I pay rent for a room, 15 mins from work. I am doing things related to my degree so it is great. I am sober for the last 4 years. Still living the straight edge lifestyle.
Enough about the real world. I want to talk real stuff.
Over time, I have been questioning my beliefs. I was not sure what to believe in and who I am as a person.
I am an atheist, an ex-Muslim, and a non-believer. I have not told my family about this. They keep talking about Islam and I tried to say that I don't pray. I don't see the point of it. I was told to believe in something that is not real to me. I don't see it. I don't have passion for it.
I can't tell them. How can I live my life like this? Religion seem to dictate everything about how a person live and act. I don't live that way. I live the way what makes me feel happy on the inside. I don't need religion to be a good person. I volunteer and sponsored a child from Ethiopia. I help people who are in need. Does that make me a bad person because I don't believe in god?
Happiness is not about doing what people tell you to do in order to fulfill their wishes. It is about doing what you love to do. If you do things for people and you are not happy, then why bother doing it? I am not happy with this world. We should be free to do the things that makes us happy. We should have the freedom to choose our own futures. God does not decide things for us. We decide them by ourselves.
We cannot rely on something that does not exist and expect something in return. We need to believe in ourselves that we can accomplish our goals.
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