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2 years did not go by quickly. I felt so much pain during these years. I made a lot of sacrifices. I did not do it because of religious reasons.

I did it to save myself from ending my own life

My lifestyle does not complement to the environment I am in.

I need to get out...

People think it is easy.

It's not.

I swear I did this all on my own. Nobody suggested anything. What worked before worked. So I decided to fall to my old self, the way I liked it.


That feeling of sadness has come back once again. I am really depressed now. I am doing badly in school and I am trying my best. I just want to be left alone. Something about the solitude keeps me satisfied with my life. No drama, no trying to get this girl then realize I wont be able to maintain the relationship, etc

I haven been home in almost a year. I am so burnt out. I am taking a full load next semester and it is not looking very good.

I am hooked on the internet. Poker, browsing, chatting....I cant get away. I tried to start an assignment at 11 am but it is already 9pm...

Tick tock, the clock goes by...