Drift

I started to realize what i have been missing out on. it wasn the parties that i said no to, or the hang-outs. It is lack of creating something new, which is music. i dont understand why i cant do my own things. the fact that people are bringing me to their level is just scary. i have gotten out of the drinking/drug lifetsyle and it hurts so much. my 21st birthday was really depressiing cuz i didn enjoy what i did. i think i can do much better next time, maybe with a set of different people who i enjoy the most. to be honest, i hate the fraternity in terms of fun. it wasn like this before. i really dread coming back here after a long day of school, cuz really, not much happens around here. its a nice weather outside and people choose to stay inside... i really need to re-evaluate myself...